How to live a magnificent life

Posted: August 13, 2010 in Daily updates

Strange as it may seem, I actually do know the secret to wealth and happiness.  The problem is that my brain keeps telling me I don’t deserve to be happy and I seem to keep punishing myself for not being perfect.  It is like there are two different versions of me.  Emanuel the teacher, the positive outspoken go lucky creator of novels and self help books, illustrator and martial artist… and then there is the Emanuel whose child hood was destroyed by a father who was never there and a step father who abused me till I moved out and relationships that were tumultuous at best.

So, who were the women that helped forge my life as it is today.

Let’s go back in history.

My first kiss, Sandy Smith Kattabach Germany, blond hair blue eyes.  That was awesome, I walked her home and carried her books, and kissed her at the door.  Afterward, some African American girls beat me up for trying to date a Caucasian girl.

My first relationship, Chery Bardi, Vicenza Italy.  The most beautiful woman in the world to me, honey blond hair.  She dumped me.  We are still friends, but I never really asked her why she dumped me.

First love at first sight romance, Valarie Rentfroe, long awesome red hair, green eyes, Pisa Italy.  Strange how I met her one day and we hung out all night and then she vanished from my life the next day.

My second relationship was a secret affair with my best friends sister, Candi Burbank.  A magnificent blond babe.  Fayetteville North Carolina.  It was too stressful keeping a secret from my best friend Shawn Burbank.  I was happy and sad it ended.

My third relationship was Laurie Jo Simon, we met in Bad Kissengen Germany.  Beautiful Blond.  We broke up when I joined the AirForce, I didn’t believe long distance love affairs could work… she got pregnant the night we said goodbye to our wonderful daughter, Desaree Shavaun Simon.

My fourth relationship was Tammy Michelle Lord.  Bodacious red head from Huntington Beach California, we met in the AirForce.  Love at first sight.  Married a few months later.  She left me for the swingers life.  Another woman and pregnant by another man… so she said.

My fifth relationship was Julia Michele Feeney.  Very beautiful honey blond babe.  We met in Leesville Louisiana.  She is the mother of our Son, Joseph Emanuel Quinton.  We just couldn’t make it work.  She didn’t trust me and I didn’t trust her.

My sixth relationship was a mistake, it was a rebound from Julia constantly saying I was cheating when I wasn’t and after she took our son and left for Indianapolis Indiana, I fell into the arms of Stacy Schmidt.  Uh, that was really rocky… she was a very hot and sultry red haired vixen.  It never should have happened, but when you are rebounding, you just want to be loved, and she played me like a fiddle.  This was still in Leesville Louisiana.  When she started playing me and my friends against each other… it was time to move on.

My seventh relationship was with Karen G Hardison in Columbia South Carolina.  I really fell deeply in love with her.  She was the first woman with a great head on her shoulders, so I thought.  I really don’t know what happened to us… a lot of little things I suppose.  I would actually have to talk to her again and find out what went wrong.

So I left South Carolina and went back to Louisiana and I get a call from Julia Michelle Feeney.  She wants me to come back and try and work things out.  She has my son, and I love my son and I am single… so why the heck not?  Well, what a mistake that was.  You can’t base your relationship on your kids.  We broke up AGAIN and I moved to Minnesota to be near my daughter.

My eighth relationship was Dawn Marie Varela. Long dark hair, light tan skin.   Half Mexican half Caucasian.  She was everything I wanted, she was everything I needed, but she didn’t respect me or appreciate me and she showed me no gratitude.  Yet I loved her regardless.  We lasted 7 years… and then she murdered me.

So what is the lesson here?  Um, yeah…  you tell me 🙂

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Comments
  1. jyngrehl says:

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  2. polybehl says:

    You do deserve a great positive life. you are a wealthy successful man. Don’t let the negative things of this world destroy the life you deserve and could have. I’m here now and am glad I’ve read all these events of your life. I have a better understanding of you as a whole. I appreciate you. Believe in you. Thankful For all you have blessed me with. Thank you and looking forward to seeing how much stronger and loving you Will become. our lives will be a positive and blessed one. I’m thankful for being Placed in your life.

    • LuckBane says:

      Hola PolyBehl. I think collaborating on a project will be the best option. Let me help you get what you were looking for until you were cut off. I think together we can make it happen. The future can only be created after you start making it. 😉

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